Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Much better today!!!!

I'm telling ya I always feel so much better after I vent and get it out.

Many people ask "is there anything we can do?"
I pretty much so "no."
Mostly because I haven't known what you can do for us. And now I've finally figured out what people can do for me. Give me referrals. I would rather get paid for something I am good at doing. We continue to be given stuff, while I'm grateful for it but it would be nice to make my own money to live off of. 
I have a business. I do photography. I love it. I'm pretty laid back when it comes to having my friends and family use me to be there photographer. I want people to make the choice of who they use. I think the reason most people don't use me is because of how much I charge and so I thought I could educate you guys a little on my pricing.
I found a photographer who charges $235 with a $50 print credit for a 16x20 (which for me costs $20 for the 16x20) She is going to bring home $215 after all is said and done. **I don't know how much time she spends for me, I will tell you below**
I will spend 2 hours on the session...prep time, shooting and driving and some time in booking.
I will take 4-5 hours in editing...adding those to times is a 6-7 hour day. How much do you make in a week or your husband...$1000 or $1500 or more? She is making $1075 and that does not include business costs that are coming out...she is making about %40 less.
I have a Google Doc (made by my awesome husband to show me how much I make or don't make).
I plugged in her numbers and it said that she had to do 20 sessions a month, that's 5 a week, she's working full time. The Doc says she will make $7.47 and hour WOW! That's not much for owning your own business and if she does less than 20 she is losing money. Sad to think especially when she is spending time away from her family. So, I say to you, you can use those photographers that is okay by me but now you know how much money they are making...its even better when they are just doing it as a hobby so its not a big deal to even pay them at all...right!?
I charge $450 a session and give about 30-60 edited images on a CD. If I give you the 30 images your paying $15 an image. You pay more than that for a print at a Target or the Kiddie Kandids. If I gave you more like 60 images your paying $7.50 an image.That's crazy when you brake it down plus, my images tell a story rather than documenting the time. How many of you are going out to eat? Once a week twice a week or maybe even 2 times a months. You could totally save that money and have memories instead of calories :)
When I go to my google doc I punch in the $450 at 10 sessions a month, part time, will pay me $37.68 an hour, now that is better for a business owner. I believe that my price is a good price but the constant feedback I get is its "outrageous" or "your probably rolling in the dough" ummmm, nope I'm pretty much not. I would like to be. I think the best way you all could help me is to tell people about me. I've had 2 referrals from my family. I kind of feel like there could be more because I have a HUGE family. But, I mostly think that the reason I'm not getting referrals from my family is because I am outrageously priced so this is why I thought of educating you. And maybe you can refer me or not.
So now you know that my price isn't outrageous and I am an AWESOME photographer...all the better to sell me.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012's the truth!

This morning Isaac says.
"This is a awesome day!"
I said "Why?"
He said "Because all the stuff on the ground is like in Star Wars so glittery."
...not really sure what he was talking about...Star Wars and glitter?

That was the start of my day. It was Good!!!!

I sit here now, the house is quiet, everyone off to school and Beckam to bed. I think, what shall I do? I've wanted it just like this...Quiet. So many thoughts run thru my head. I should clean the house, work on my business, go find someone to serve, pay bills, go to the grocery store, maybe just maybe, I could go to the mall. But I don't do any of it. Instead I find something to I'm resting.
It's about 2:15 someone pulls up to the house. I look out the window only to reminded that they are here to shut off my water crap, I thought I had til the 27th. I grab the notice off of the door, it says, "if you can make payment by 3:00 we can turn your water back on. I get dressed, wake Beckam up and run to go pay my bill. I get to Pleasant Grove City and they tell me that this notice is not from them. I'm confused. They say you need to pay Cedar Hills. I then say, I've never paid a bill to Cedar Hills...soon to find out what happens when I've never paid Cedar Hills. I'm off to Cedar Hills to settle the bill, barely make it in time. The guy at the desk tells me my balance is $1,877.00. I about had a heart attack. What! Can you say that again (as I'm laughing)? I'm thinking he's telling me the wrong, he's not, that is our freaking balance we owe. Yeah, I wanted to cry. So,now its time to move on to talk to someone else about my bill.
Now, Dax and I trying to get it all figured out. It looks like my bill was going to the landlord and he just put it in the garbage or something...I don't know what he did. He was even getting notices about our shutoff. Oh, and the reason why the confusion because Cedar Hills and Pleasant Grove, in my area, haven't been able to split up until now and since I was paying my culinary water they couldn't shut me off until now.
Dax sets me up on a payment plan and says I can pay over 6 months and comes to about $260 a month, that's when I cried, not too much just small tears. Sometimes I can't hold it in. I think he felt bad and said I can make the plan for 12 months which now comes to $127 a month...doable but in our case still not so much.
2 1/2 hours later I'm home with another bill to add to the stack. I know there could be worse things to worry about. My child being sick or my husband but I don't need to go off of what could be happening but instead I'm worrying about where we will get money to pay the next bill or how I can get food on the table for dinner (mind you we have food, but its nice to eat something yummy). We've eaten a lot pasta and rice and tonight I was tired of of being creative and popped some popcorn and had some toast with butter. The kids love toast with butter.
I keep thinking that I shouldn't worry so much about it, it will all work itself out. But its been almost 3 years. The part I'm worried most about is my faith. I keep thinking why would God have this go on for so long. Its enough. I feel like I've learned a lot but it seems its not enough.
I feel like I'm living in the deep depression and everyone around me is living in some other world. Many times I wake up positive, like this morning and then I'm bombarded with, can you buy this can you pay for this...need lunch money, no gas in my car, the garage door breaks, the dish washer is broken...blah, blah, blah. So, I'd like to think I was pretty positive 2 years ago. Thinking we will make it thru this. Greg and I have had our moments fighting, frustration, and then pulling together. I'd like to say we've done a pretty good job together.
Where am I at? I'm numb. I have anxiety about how to pay for things? I HATE it.
And to get myself out of this state I've thought of SERVICE because that's what the prophets have told us to do. I'm kind of stumped on how to do that. It seems nobody needs service because everyone else is trying to find someone to serve as well...the end.

Sunday, January 01, 2012

We did it!!!!!!

We read the whole Book of Mormon in 3 months.

The Bishop has challenge the ward to read the scriptures. We started after Thanksgiving and ends Jan 6th.  We've been doing some catchup as a family. Greg is done, I am close and the kids are half way thru it. I say good for them to be able to do it. We just need a few more days of listening and we will accomplish.