What does that bring for me...read below.
This month has been a crazy one but we are making it thru some better than others.
Many of you know that I am an open book. If I am having a GOOD day or a BAD day you will all know...am I right Nate, I don't hide it very well. Is that good thing or a bad one I'm not sure.
Anyways as we move forward to the next month we are looking forward to moving out of our home and into a basement apartment. It kind of sounds bad coming from a 4,000 square foot home with 7 bedrooms 3 bathrooms 1 1/2 kitchens and 3 living rooms and a half an acre lot...but its not so we are excited to be making some changes. We get to downsize (get rid of stuff) save money, for a new home, fix our credit but the best part is we get to be close as a family and have the experience to save together and serve on another.
I wanted to write down some of my thoughts about this yesterday.
What a day I have had...been sitting here in self pitty and "what if's" and "I don't want this to be happening." While I am doing this I have realized I don't like it when my children do this so why am I doing it to Greg...LAME! I am so thankful for his patience with me in giving me this time to discover for myself how I want to be in the circumstance and not getting upset at me. In the meantime he was finding every possible way to lift my burdens & take my stress away. It's not like he as any stress of his own...finding a place to live and running a company trying to make everyone happy all at the same time. I wish I could be half as strong as him. He is such an amazing example to me.
Before writing this down I had the strong impression of what it has meant for me in having Beckam come to our family and what it can bring to me as a mother. Each child has given ME something. My 1st child a NEW look on life and complete LOVE. The 2nd PATIENCE for they were 16 months apart and best buddies. The 3rd brought PEACE the 4th HARMONY and the the 5th RELAX and have FUN!
Having Beckam and taking care of him as meant me not being in control of how everything runs in this home and to let things go has been huge for me.
If I can take all of these attributes (or whatever you call them) and use them, I will enjoy the life that was set for me as a mother. I can't wait to see what's in store for me and comes out of this new found knowledge.
My best buddies and wonderful examples to me for I who I have become and will become. I love them so much!